Sunday, January 30, 2011

How do you know?

To answer the question: Someone said, if you can imagine him/her 40 years down the road, pants down, sitting on the toilet bowl reading newspaper. And still can smile. He/she is the one.

I personally feel that you know its the right one
when everyday is such a happy day
even fights/unhappy days seem so sweet
you can't get your mind off that person
you close your eyes you see him/her
you open your eyes you see him/her
you save up, and plan to go out with him/her
you burn down your entire forest for him/her
you're so proud of him/her, you want everyone to know
you want to hold his/her hands and dance under the stars
you plan surprises and everything he/she says is cute and silly
his/her presence makes unhappiness/weariness go away
you are willing to suffer, to make him/her happier
you love him/her the same
even when his/her hair is like shit
and even when he/she got pimples all over his/her face

everywhere u go, you think of that person
everything u do, you think of that person
everything u eat, you think of that person
every breath u take, you think of that person
every sms that comes, you wish its that person
you worry for him/her
you wanna protect him/her
you get jealous of him/her
you wanna spend your last cent on/with him/her
you dream of a married life with him/her
having kids, growing old together, holding hands in heaven

When that person leaves you
he/she scars you so bad
you lose your sanity, dignity and ability to lead a normal life
It hurts worse than any physical pain could give
The poison eats you relentlessly
and there is NO antidote
You lost meaning in life
and realises that you've finally loved somebody
more than you loved yourself
GG!

That person is the One, the Right One
This person is extremely hard to find
May be once in a lifetime
Lacking any of the points above
does not qualify him/her

HOWEVER

1. this person may be the Right One for you
2. you may not be the Right One for him/her
3. you may have to wait even years to realize that.
But would he/she be worth the wait?

Those who have met the one will know
what the hell I'm talking about.

A Chance To Do It Right.

Someone just told me. Never try to convince someone to love you or to make someone stay who wants to leave you. To which I remained silent.

Am I trying to "fix" someone who's making me unhappy? Are I silently sabotaging something that's pretty darn good for myself?

If we can consider relationships to be the ground from which we grow the rest of our lives, we can see how our reactions to LOVE relationships restructure all aspects of our lives. Is it possible to pull away from what John Mayer calls "heartbreak warfare" ?

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Seeing you again.

We may not be as close as we were…but I still enjoy your company…I would cry if anything was to happen to you…we may not be together…fate has chosen or will choose our future…maybe were suited as friends instead of lovers…but what I do know for sure…that deep down I still have loads of love for you.

Sometimes I wish I… was a little kid again…skinned knee’s are easier to fix…than broken hearts

Thursday, November 11, 2010

I feel used.

I'm Still Standing


Verse One:
You gave me courage to believe
that all your goodness I will see
and if it had not been for you standing on my side
where would I be

Chorus:
If not for your goodness
if not for your grace
I don't know where I would be today
if not for your kindness
I never could say I'm still standing
if not for your mercy
if not for your love
I most likely would have given up
if not for your favor I never could say
I'm still standing but by the grace of God

Verse Two:
To you I lift my offering
and set my heart on higher things
for if it had not been for you standing on my side
where would I be


Thursday, September 2, 2010

I am jealous for ...

He is jealous for me
Love's like a hurricane,
I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of
His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me.

Oh, how He loves us so
Oh, how He loves us
How He loves us so.
(x2)

We are His portion and
He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption
by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns
violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way

- David Crowder Band

I've felt how it is like to be jealous for someone but never had I think about it the other way. The first 5 words of the song just broke me down... "He is jealous for me..." Enough said. there's nothing more .. just 5 words..

I love Jesus ...

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

“Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option”